This post is a little different from the others. When I created this blog I was going to talk about everything that was going on in my life in order to encourage other people to risk and to love more.
For some months I’ve been way from blogging, because I was not satisfied with my life and with the direction I was taking. I demoralized and let myself ride the wave. Suddenly everything changed. One week ago a star appeared in the middle of the storm.
We all have times in life when something goes wrong or we are not satisfied, this has been happening to me in the last few months.
My life stagnated and I stagnated …
But in these last four months I have also met myself. I’m 23 years old and only now I found myself. Only now I realized what I like and what I want to be. I decided to do this internal research on my own without sharing this with anyone.
This week I made the decision to change my career with fear and indecision but life is risky and I no longer want to think what might happen … I want it to happen naturally and let fate decide everything.
This week I met new people and got punched in the stomach! It was a stoner of all the good. I opened my heart and let two new people into my life, let myself go with them and it was the best I did. I missed letting someone enter in my world this fast. And amazingly it went quite well, I got another view of life.
When I came to Malta my first goal was to put the feelings aside because people get out of our life very fast, what we have today is not what we will have tomorrow.
I’m governed by feeling, everything that happens is seen by me with feeling and I was losing that side of me. I stopped saying I missed you, I stopped saying I like you to people who deserve it so much. And I have to go back to that spirit, I have to go back and I have to stop being afraid to express my feelings … Who guarantees me that tomorrow I will be here or that you will be here? Everything changes in a fraction of seconds. All…
So here I am, coming back slowly.
Never cease to be you and never get carried away in the rush of life … Life plays a lot of games and we don’t even realize it.
Today I came back, and I came back hard!